Whenever I want something really wonder whether it is really good for me:) .
remember the first time I was pregnant I wanted to a child who was born a boy. Raged at the thought that it might be different (probably Satyi gets sad when I read this ...) and some even rejected the idea indescribable care girl:) . This is a very personal religion, but I'm not too sentimental. From an objective standpoint, I go to things that were and never come back. According to what has been and is not, etc. But the thing ...
When it came time to resolution was deep night. New situation, new challenges and no big unknown: WHAT is born? My prayers for the boy reached a climax! In the spirit of the holiest consisted of a promise that I will be an exemplary mother, I will take care of her son as best I can, I never let him to become any harm, etc., etc.
And it happened. The nurse assisting at the birth postponed newborn baby in a specially designated place, just behind my head and said, "Pretty healthy baby girl "... and her face quickly turned into a complete stupor. Lame excuse for wanting to see the back of the child screamed in a loud voice: "WHAT? GIRL? What girl? Excuse me, but I'm not ready for a girl! "
before my eyes appeared small roaring infant, whose skin has become pale violet color in the light of a neon bulb. I was terrified! Angry that my prayers are not true: I ... Now what? Escape hence as soon as possible and never come back here no!
With barely stifled in himself to push the feeling on the lips and took in "the girl". Only after a few moments, holding her at the breast occurred to me that it was MY girl that I have to deal with it, feed, he needs me as anyone in the world. I saw that I had no influence on so many things that I faced and still meet in life. I thanked God for the fact that he knows what he's doing. Because peace came over me, everything is in His hands. Whatever I do not meet is good because God is good and knows what is good for me. Phew, what a relief. Different things we encounter in our life journey, but in the whole art to learn to accept them as they are. Art that makes us more strong and confident.
All this extraordinary night very influenced my life ... I am a happy mom:)
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