I have written about childbirth, but I wanted to share yet one reflection, which appeared when I first got pregnant. It was a brand new, previously unknown situation in which my body does not behave as before. With horror I thought about the growing belly, to the point that I could not sleep the night and morning sickness only intensified psychological dilemmas. But the most afraid of childbirth! What will it be? How will you! Why not share the fate of many women who have died during this horrific event? Maybe the child will have some sick! Pushing these thoughts to the ends self-awareness. When the first contractions did not believe that it is NOW. My husband also was not convinced. "Go and lie down, maybe it will pass," he said at the news of the "weird" pains.
But it is not passed, just the opposite - have increased to such an extent that nothing could no longer put off the moment that he appeared so suddenly and had to change my life forever. For the first time I had to be mom ...
When I lay already in hospital for head ran crazy thoughts: And here I am here and it just happens! This is the time came, about which I knew from about 9 months, and it appears I am in a situation which has never been. Total new! And nothing could be done to reverse the course of events, I'm just totally dependent on what fate will bring. You can not say: Thank you, I do not like it, I want to go home!
And I thought that from a practical point of this is similar to death. It is known that somewhere there ever come a moment that I will be in this completely new situation in which I have never, completely dependent on the rights of strangers. Then that I could not go back, go back, say: I want to go home! I do not know where I will go, nor what awaits me, because I do not know what is on the other side ... so I thought:
I HAVE TO PREPARE FOR THIS!